The world without is the world within…or was it the other way round? My journey to find the matrix behind the curtain and beyond the looking glass began in a haze of fog, fear, fighting and flighting.
After a glimpse of where it all may lead, instead of feeling grateful for finally finding the treasure map which traces the yellow brick road to the path of enlightenment, I had to make a pit stop at anger and disbelief.
My glass slippers were hurting my feet and my braids were too tight. I had already discovered lots of places that felt like home and so far, the matrix was still just a mirage.
That’s how my journey began. Pushback and stubborness were the baggage I carried.
As instructed, I stopped to breathe and be still (after letting my hair down and kicking those one-hour stilettos to the curb). Still dangerously close to the edge of failure and regret, I allowed the panic and anxiety to wash over me like a comforting blanket of familiarity.
Then that damned white rabbit hopped into that freaking hole, and I rembered that I promised myself that I would not quit.
You see…I swallowed the red pill this time.
WOW, Dana.. nice blog…
From the Matrix “NoBody makes the first jump” Not even Neo.
But you took that “BIG LEAP” and that’s what counts.
You are SO FREAKING BRAVE, your scaring your own ego.
You got this, now put it through the pipes.
BeBlessed `Darren
http://MasterKeyExperience.ca
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Well-said Darren
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“Pushback and stubbornness”.
I like to think of it as persistence, but it is really counterfeit persistence. Thanks for the insight!
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Dana, you’re not in Kansas anymore. Put on those ruby slippers and find your way home.
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Clearly YOU are the HERO in this story!
You have so much bravery behind that concrete.
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Dana, wow, what a great blog and how creative you are to take several childhood stories and interweave them into your thoughts. Have you ever thought about writing a book on your blogs? Nice job and I can hardly wait to read your second blog. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Your Blog Rover Friend, Eulaine
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Welcome to the Master Key Experience – This is your journey and you can write your own story, discover your own magic and create your own ‘wow’ moments!!!!
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Amazing story of your own hero’s journey. Love this “My glass slippers were hurting my feet and my braids were too tight.” You have great examples of the resistance we all feel and experience, and yet the desire to do things different…you stopped to be still and breathe (yay)….Also great insight about the panic and anxiety being comforting…. And still you chose the red pill. You are courageous! I can’t wait to see what’s down that rabbit hole for you! And then… “It’s your dream. You decide.” 🙂
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I’m hanging on to your coattails my friend….lead on!
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Dana, good for you for choosing the red pill. Your desired best self is thanking you already. Your blog rover friend John.
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